So on Saturday I had a Skype audition for a short film being shot in Florida by a director from Portugal who is new to Naples. I am in Maine with Brendan till the end of his contract. The god's must be crazy...bc every time we go out of town some where, any where... one of our agents or someone reaches out to us to audition in the place we just left...Am I right??!?? But this time, in spite of the Cardinal Cross, these kind folks allowed me to do a Skype audition. We read the sides together, we talked, we laughed and we "hung up." Monday (the off-day) we had 2 appointments for 2 theatres here in Maine. Both very nice theatres, with VERY nice Artistic Directors.
Ok side bar -- I started this blog as part of this site because several years ago I started a blog on my professional page and got cold feet but this time around I was like "what the hell" let's just do it...actors are so worried about their images and how they come off to other actors and more importantly perhaps how they come off to producers & agents. The gatekeepers, if you will. And I get it. I know you can't be totally transparent about EVERYTHING (I'm not an idiot) but come on already...Brendan and I have been at this career for about 20 years each. oooff-ta. What can I say. Which leads me back to my story --
So..... I went up at one of the auditions. I totally went up. Like WAYYY up. And instead of just going on and making up some old bullshit like they "teach" you to do-- I just stopped. I just looked straight out, started laughing and I stopped. I said 'Hey, I am up and I... yeah." I was sort of in shock but I just didn't want to bullshit my way through something that I knew was not going to be any good. (I am actually laughing again right now about it...). I began again and it was focused. I guess, here's the thing -- to just be totally real... The job is really about getting the work. If you are a full time actor, most of your time is spent seeking out work. Which is exhausting and hell on the psyche and all the rest of it. And everyone has bad days at work, right? So Monday was a tricky day at the office. But the flip side was I was back on track for the 2nd audition of the day. And I just wanted to put that out there bc so many actors don't really tell the truth about this shit for fear of looking weak or bad or stupid or whatever-- myself included up till now! I am fessing up to this one. Moral of the story-- by the end of the day I booked the short film from the Saturday audition. Yippy! But my phone died while I was out in the woods of Maine on these theatre auditions and I had absolutely convinced myself that they had gone in another direction...Until I plugged in my phone and heard the voice mail. Actors are crazy people. Happy auditions everyone! Break those legs and remember to BREATHE!!!